The very "First Love"

The things we find most unconventionally and unexpectedly always make home in our heart,

So while I try to forget them all, I live with them everyday.

The deep brown eyes setting on me for the first time,

A warm pat saying that you will always watch my back.

The honest smile which always melted my heart,

Holding hands like we will never part.

The plans of lifetime in a wink of a eye,

That's how the first love feels like!

The reassurance of constantly staying beside,

Pampering me with all the little things I like.

Tackling all my mood swings and tantrum,

I was a tireless person  always with high thrum.

Never ending last 5 minutes before hanging up the phone,

All the cute texts in our newly found language like never before.

Feeling of being safe with you whenever you were around,

My first love never let me land my feet on the ground.

Always walking an extra mile whenever you could only for me,

It felt nothing less than Heaven when you were with me.

You brought the best in me, and you set me free,

Encouraging me to fly to the peak and calming down my spree.

You were more of a feeling than a person to me,

Where I felt the most happy and home as I can be.

A hopeless romantic, and someone who can go to lengths for the one you love,

I will always remember our honest and comforting "First Love".

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Of Passion and Self love

And that's how I keep coming back to  you , with different speeds but dire need of love. The more I think about you the more I feel I loose myself , its like entering the world of illusion .. of fantasies .. of dreams where whatever I desire I can achieve with your presence. The passion which brings us together bind us tight has an address of its own residing in our hearts unleashed.

The first time I was without you, I couldn't find a way on my own , I was like a phoenix which couldn't resurrect, that's how much I depended on you, but you never realized the madness I carried in my heart and soul for you. There were ways to define my love for you but I hardly could find words or synergize with your energy.

The second time I was without of you ..I was strong, strong enough to hide my weakness without you, I understood that by this time you are used to the fact that I can live without you. You took me lightly again and I broke down to pieces in my heart, but I stood strong thankfully you taught that very well to me. 

Then again a time came when we met , we met fiercely in the same tangent this time procrastinating the going away time this time. Everything looks same now as the first time with you and I passionately in love , the only thing remains changed that I am unaffected by  your behavior , I am strong in my heart and mind. I am no longer afraid of you leaving neither do I am refraining to keep myself away from you.Because I know somewhere in my mind that although our love  is  persistent but still we were never on the same page and you will still go away.

So here I am all strong headed, unaffected and self dependent , I realized in the due course that you don't need anyone else to assure you or praise you all along the way and you can do it pretty well yourself . We do get dependent on relationships in life and they become our main reasons to be stay alive but believe  me striving for self happiness is the only thing which will help us in long run and makes us keep going.

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