Mommy's heart out!

I wanted it. But when it came to me I realised what was i missing out or how much I desired of having it. The twinkling eyes,mushy nose,wrinkled skin and tiny hands; never knew that a baby brings that much of joy to your heart, its like purification of your soul and adding a meaning to your living.
They say of all the relations u have in this earthly dimension , you have an extra 9 month relationship with your mother. This sounded a little overrated before the self experience but  whoaa the experience of 9 months were definately worth it after seeing him for the first time.
The celebration starts with a baby's birth and is continued  every single day is a new day filled with different musings and explorations. The way the sun radiates and distributes energy and light everyday is the same with my sunshine my baby boy(although a toddler now).
Today on mothers day, nearing the third year of motherhood I am so charmed to be called as "Mumma" by my little one. A hug from him woes away the sorrows, a smile from him woes away all the anger. The innumerable questions he asks, the rhymes he sings, the useless demands he makes, the way he is particular for which clothes to wear, and all the naatak he does are so identical to being alive now.
As mothers we have got this opportunity to raise ourselves in form of our child, to live our childhood yet again! Its the most difficult yet most amazing and lovable task of all times. I want to dedicate this post to my son, for giving me an opportunity to be a mother and loving me unconditionally day in and out. If these kids would not have been around the word Mother would loose its sound. Happy mother' s day...

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Virtual Vanity

Do you remember , when was the last time we were human beings far away from our virtual projection(projection indeed). Virtual being is preferred for a number of reasons in my opinion:
Firstly, because we like living in the projection, somewhere,it is that ideal which we seek in ourselves day in and out.

Secondly, because it takes you far away from the daily tribulations into a world of our imagination and dreams.

Thirdly and importantly because of the ease of use (thanks to the Smartphone technology). Your friends and loved ones are with you invariably 24*7.

Have you ever kept a track of how many places you log in with your account, what events your account shares, what sites are using your email id e.t.c. We are so virtually exposed and engaged that we hardly realize to talk to people around, instead slot in with what’s app and FB. Recently Fb had come with “your life story” and people who are no-where near your zone are suddenly interested in that so called look Back.
I am sure that most of us have people in our friends list with whom we didn’t even speak once when they were around!  Gradually and  this virtual presence is now becoming so important and a must have for everyone. Instagram, twitter, pintrest, vingle are like social icons for the youngsters. Not even them even these but the celebrities, politicians, entreprenuers, and sportsperson too have made these a medium to connect with the mango people
Facebook is like a bulletin board, instagram a photo album, twitter an announcement platform ,pintrest like a craft manifestation, youtube like a tv channel. And now you read the above lines again without the apps name, you would be forced to think that until few years back those were the activities which served as ways to spend time with family and friends.
All this aside even the Indian passport department has proposed to release e-passports for the citizens of india from the next year..life is becoming so digitalised and far away from the real relationships.
Being in touch is always the good part of these social mediums but if that being in touch with far away people distants you with people around you, then technology has byfar taken the notch above relationships,  where eye to smartphone contact is much preferable than eye to eye contact. Balance the technology tactfully, rejoice both virtual and  actual presence of self, so that you don't regret the time lost in future.

Life being a 'Control freak'

I've had it, and I am so done with being a control freak. I feel like a jerk most of the times like making fool of myself with this ocd of mine. I have tried to go with the flow...in th moment  but am unknowingly back to the square one...me with my excruciating ocd.
By saying being a control freak don't misunderstand me with controlling people, its about self. A constant voice in the head demanding you to do a thing in a particular mannner, at particular time. Its like a tap on the head in few minutes or so for something or the another.
Like any basic day filled with so much of moral code, rules and a pattern to take care off!Often I am filled with utmost pride and a fewer times with frustration too..because it holds me tight at all times and there are no bounds of rescue..
I am so trapped thats its difficult to enjoy the nitty gritties; I have not known in my circle of friends anyone who is also a control freak...or they might be but atleast they r not visible and imposing on the people around.

I want a day without a routine, a day of utter nonsense like the state of being zero...being lazy..like a couch potato..without the nagging in the head about taking a hot shower...or say following the code...or cooking a proper meal...or staying organised and well placed.

For once I want the that voice out of me...not wanting me to behave ideally, there are so many to do lists which cannot start before this voice dips down! I want my sanity back to be myself for a while. 
Do you know anyone like me..if you do pls share how to tackle and reduce it with time.

Don't loose ,love fat!

Fat ...fat..fat ! The most important word round the world, someone wants to loose and someone wants to gain. An unwanted  higher prefrence is been given to it, and suprisingly whether you give 'your weight' much importance or not but other people do!
Besides the health problems, I don't see anything wrong in being fat. I am plump and I love it, does it change my mind or heart or the way I view things or the way I  do with my relationships??
Whats the fuss...why can't people let people be...everything in this world have different shapes and sizes then why not humans? So what if people petite have well formed molecules and perfect metabolism? Whether its xl..2xl..or 3 xl, noone wants to blow out of proportion but some metabolisms does it..! Its all nature if it would have been unnatural God would have made all the people of same shape.
Judgement and comments on basis of weight should be highly restricted, u know what the best dancers..cook..singers..even heroes come from this slot, try not giving such high equations to weight in your relationship..maybe you will loose out someone special or might hurt someone deeply!
Ok now tell me what is the problem if a person doent have vital statistics...uuuh I know actually she/he will not be a treat to watch! As if we care:(
By all this I dont mean to just become fat and not trying loosing my belly..but u dnt know whether why that person is fat and how much of an effort is being done by him/her to defeat the same, unfortunately our society looks up for everything idealistic...Ideal body..ideal features...ideal profession and a long list follows. No one can be perfect so enjoy being imperfect atleast.
This post of mine is just dedicated to all the people who have weight issues...pls enjoy yourselves because the time will fly and don't hook up on the discouragements and unwanted advices..be what you are love urselves! STAY FIT thats what is important and lastly eat well , eat right and don't starve your dear body!Love the fat m sure it will melt its way down;))

Karma- the ultimate reaper

They say Karma is a bitch ! It is the ultimate reaper of your worldly affairs, the balance sheet of your life with suspense account too!
The very popular phrase stand true in our lifetimes “what you sow is what you reap." I firmly believe that whatever u do here u r paid off here only in this life and there is nothing called heaven or hell..The concept of heaven and hell was created to control the mankind..so that the evil is stopped with the fear of final consequence...
We don't realize this often that we take things for granted, mistreat people in our life span not thinking that anything which goes around..comes around! We fear hell but not the relationship consequence, its so hard to see that people ditch karma for a handful of money or an ounce of ego.
Its frightening to stay testimony of so much on that happens on the name of Dharma and Karma..i feel an act of give away, or an act to make feel someone special does not exists anymore! With all that i m not stating that all people are bad, but a few spoils the whole lot!
Disheartment fills up my soul, when i see around me the physical agony of being handicapped...a bunch of little things brighten up there faces...and we with all that is there just crib for the mere belongings..
Karma is what you possess in mind,heart an soul! Its your lookout towards your contribution to people around, something which makes you think before you do a deed; its nothing but your conscience shouting loud ...listen to it often , it will resolve much of your sufferings..and don't forget its a small life to cherish, love, laugh, be good and eat well! So now on your karma should be the one ur conscience wants to be ..and in the end ; it does nt really matters ... u will be just remembered for your sweet little Karma:)

Where do we stop??

A scene
A person from a small village---"There is no scope in this village for my future i wanna go to the city to work"
Same person in the city----"There is not enough salary to work in the city i wanna go to a metro city"
In Mumbai----“phew! There is so much traffic ...pollution...fast paced life...how do i survive...its better to work in Dubai"
In dubai--- “Things aren't like India...nothing like back home...my village was the best place"

OMG where do we stop??? Did u get the whole idea of writing this story above...these kind of stories i often hear off..with people who just want to run away from the present situation and the place is a mere reason to back it...
Ask yourself where do we stop??? Lets skip the places...we do the same pattern with all the kind of choices we make in life!!!The core problem what it seems to me is the generation....we want all the things faster ..smarter...better...we can't wait...its a haste generation what they call..
Have u heard of any of our parents or older people talking about their nonstop future desires...probably they also talked about it in younger ages...but we are way ahead...life before was peaceful n less competitive...having a property..funds...car was rare luxury....
Now these things are everyday luxury ..with the technological , well marketed and over customized world has brought everything on a click...
Our generation doesn't value...coz we never had to do any efforts to get these...they were never beyond our limits and always were over in abundance...we should sit back n admire our possessions once coz only acquiring doesn't finishes the conquest....
There is no definition of enough.....how much is enough??? I want to save enough.....i want to put aside for my child enough....the point here is for whomsoever u r earning this enough for...is growing up(child) ...growing old ( u n ur spouse)....time is flying..
Take time off...set limits to your goals...set up a benchmark of ur satisfaction....and work towards it...running with blinkers to win a race will never take you where you want to go...and even if you win the race...the people you were running for would be  left way behind... Think!