An year of endeavors

Recently we completed a whole year in Kuwait..
An year of changes, endeavors and compatibility..
There is no specific no-no or even yes-yes for that matter in this country..but we indians just make our way out of everything..our govt teaches us that well..
Seen the spirit of festivals which is hard to find in India too... we take celebrations too casual and for granted back home..
Mostly stationed at one place -my home....thanks to the driving rules of the country for dependent visas..
Have attended parties and dinners maximum of all times....atleast one thing is happening which i like...being socially active..
Fitness has really taken a toll over and i m so motivated with the act of being lazy and confined to an indoor regime...
With grilled barbeques on the beach...camping in desert..flying kites in the humid wind...sheishas along are some of the favourite things of people around..
The weather permits only three seasons hot-hotter-hottest...phew!
My taste buds were glad to have tasted Arabic, lebenese food which otherwise i would not have eaten..
There is one more thing which cudnt be left talking about-shopping!
The flashes, glitterati, luxury shows in every Arab u see...with those out of the world eye make ups i wonder how innovative they r with their touch ups...
Surprisingly u get all original brands of the world and its first made too;)
All the cuisines  of the world with expats from every corner of the globe...
With the Arabs so fond of coffee shops and hanging around i feel major portion of the profits of star bucks is contributed by Kuwait..
Missed my home and friends in pune...the freedom to commute on my own...the galli, mohalla,nuklad spirit....the comfort zone which is now rebuilt....the accessibility to day to day things...like just picking up the ph and calling ppl..my two wheeler and the amazing monsoon and that cold breeze!
All in all an year to explore...observe and appreciate the country although nothing beats India;)) U r being missed...

2nd Birthday brags..

It started with an excitement to hold u in my arms...the wait of sonographies to see a glimpse of u..all the kicks and rollovers were worth it coz soon i found two lil hands...two cute feet and i was blessed with a baby boy...Nivaan...the sleepless nights...howlings....smile in the middle of sleep..screaming..cuddling...dozens of advices and tonnes of dos n donts....but we survived ;)))it has all been the part for all this while and wow 2 yrs completed that was fast....i wish i cud cuddle u more for the coming years like i do now...have seen u grow every inch these past two years.. the first time u walked...said mumma....sung a song...danced a step..will always be embossed in my heart...as the days are rolling by i enjoy to listen to ur half broken...cute english n hindi....the way u say Mumma touches my soul....i have learnt so much from you....as a mother...handling u at the times of tantrum..all ur drama for not eating....not sleeping in your own bed...pulling me literally out to go to park to play..or listen to a fav song of urs....u have really taught me to make a way thru all this.....i am so blessed...with an angel like u ...who is so particular from this young age
...either for a smurf bag or elmo shoes....its good to be particular;)  Baby thanks for making my life each and every bit complete and beautiful...life without u is un imaginable...happy birthday son...and may u get best of all the worlds and all the luck from the heavens...i love u so much....hope u read it some day n smile at me....I m a proud mom...n will always be coz i have a star like u Nivaan...:*

Escapism

A mere wish...a long run dream....a hard chosen wisdom...but i really want it ------to be carefree...
Away from the world's grudges, life's montony, indifferent people and unpredictable circumstances...
Escapism is the word...the word i look for being carefree...
I feel thats why God made death when he created life...thats the ultimate freedom of body...not soul though!
The multiples of responsibilities are found everyday in so many ways..what to keep up n what to loose is all on us....
I wanna run away from choices , they drive u crazy...why there is a concept of choice...
Why cant a thing be done in just one way....a single way...a single thing
I wanna run away from the confusion of the limits to let ppl in your life...why cant God have some signs named good and bad!
Ppl you think r gud...definitely they are gud enugh to shatter you n go...n the ones u think are bad...are really bad to express what they really are..
I wanna run away from shackles of do and donts....who decides the donts...n rather who cares...everything today is a fad...
I wanna run away from the bias judgements and endless suggestions of the ppl...Oh my God ...get life! Give space and take space however much u want...let the person be alone..we are not machines that we will need instruction manuals....just let the person be..
I wanna run away from this artificiality and nonsense formality which makes no meaning...either u do or u dnt...just chuck it.. all r grown ups here..we understand with what u say n behave...
I wanna run away from the unwanted actions forced upon u...u should do this to get this....always incentive based emotional atyachaar...
I wanna run away from my expressive nature and heart...why this heart cant just do the simple work of pumping blood rather getting into complex issues of love n expectations...
I wanna run away from the fake smiles and fancy whereabouts i wish the face and outer attire could indicate with a colour whether it is genuine or fake...
I wanna be me ....my way not every time but at least one time in a day....the time only mine...whr i do n live my way...
I wanna sort myself...just like emptying the whole toy box...and putting it again piece by piece..with wat fits where types....
Just wanna fly free although i wudnt be able to fly too high coz i wud miss the weight of responsibility on my wings...

Infuse Appreciation

How often we say thanks for being there to someone we love...
How often do we appreciate the efforts and love...
How often do we realize the importance of saying i love u....
We r so into ourselves that we hardly realise!
Gone are the days when there was no technology..atleast there was time for  emotions and value of ppl around....
I strongly feel that a few words can also prove mightier to hold relationships, and if in praise nothing like it..
Try n inculcate, infuse appreciation whether for ur family, friends or for a random stranger ....believe me u will feel good...i  trying this for sure...

Be cognizant of contentment

Years ago when i was in school...we had a special school and hostel for deaf and dumb adjacent to my school...
As kids we were afraid of the noises they made when we played in the playground ....from the adjacent buildings ...as those special kids had only the way out to communicate was to make loud noises..
We used to ignore the noise and used to eat our favourite food filled tiffins...enjoying our annual function..sports...mere fights and making best of frenship ( oh u know how that age is)
We never paid attention rather ignore those special kids...today after so many years when i went to that special school for a little charity... i realized the contentment of those kids....
Even after their vital senses were absent they were so helpful..understanding...n satisfied with smiling faces...
To my surprise the adversity of the situation doesnt affect their level of  contentment!
Today i felt how fake we are....we have all shiny things but nt that smile of fulfillment...
Of all the things we have we go n fight for petty things..we never consider and recognize the value of things we hold..
Whatever was given to them they ate fully with no..nos n no left overs...n were so happy that we brought something for them...
They had no signs of  jealousy...no temptation...no negativity...just those brilliant faces with  warm smiles
Today i realized the importance of being alright and pay gratitude to God to give me an opportunity to live the life i want..full of gadgets...vehicles...n abundance...
Today i realized how blessed they are...they are away from worlds misery...
Today i felt so miserable that i cant carry the way they carry their smile..I m just so mesmerized with the way they deal their loss and the way we deal out nuisance little problems.
Their eyes were so clear n intentions were so pure...we should really learn from them..
Hats off to all the kids...very well behaved n i enjoyed giving them food...watching them talking in their sign language which had deeper impact than our audible ones..hope we be cognizant of the contentment which we have in our lives...

My own Emotional Turmoil

It actually takes me ages to get u..n u just forget n move on..
It nearly takes me an hour to think before calling you...n u just dnt pick up...
It just takes me few mins to throw tantrums on u....n u just grudge on it for days...
It merely takes a second to say hi...n u r so busy even for the minuscule of the second for it ...
It almost takes a whole night for me to cover up with the whole day of ignorance...n u r ready with ur lot again the next morning..
It takes a lot of courage of mine to speak my heart out...n u don't even listen half of it..
It seriously gets on my nerve when i loose u in between the conversation...n u r absolutely cool about it..
It takes years for ppl to settle down with each other n u r just running away with it in days...
It really hurts me the time u say u r not worth ..i dnt deserve u.....coz if i dnt deserve u ...i dnt deserve anything else in the world...
U have a heart of gold n attitude so bold....i wish i cud show the love for u i hold.....

Dil bawra

Ae dil bas hua ab....kyun guzarna chahta hai phir uss dard se...
Bas kar chalna har us rah per jisme hai chuppi aur tanhai...
Kyun tu uss disha hai jana chahta jaha har samay hain ek dutkaar...
Is jahan meh koi nahi samjhta na  bhawna naa pyaar....
Kar lo jitne bhi jatan...hota hai mushkil paana samaan...
Buzdil kitna hai dil ki darta hai ekaki se....aur phir chal padta hai uss dagar..jaha ka rasta hai dushvaar..
Apne har anubhav se yeh seekha hai humne ki naa doharana us dobaar..
Itna kuch ho jane per bhi iss pagal dil ko samjhana hai bekaaar...
Shikayaton ke silsilone aaj tak dia na koi faisla... ulta mushkil ho jata hai vyavhaar..
Aas per jeene se kuch hota nahi kyunki aas ka nahi koi paar..
Iss bhawnao ke bawandar meh itna fass jate hain ki bass karte reh jaate hai sahi samay ka intezaar...!