Life being a 'Control freak'

I've had it, and I am so done with being a control freak. I feel like a jerk most of the times like making fool of myself with this ocd of mine. I have tried to go with the flow...in th moment  but am unknowingly back to the square one...me with my excruciating ocd.
By saying being a control freak don't misunderstand me with controlling people, its about self. A constant voice in the head demanding you to do a thing in a particular mannner, at particular time. Its like a tap on the head in few minutes or so for something or the another.
Like any basic day filled with so much of moral code, rules and a pattern to take care off!Often I am filled with utmost pride and a fewer times with frustration too..because it holds me tight at all times and there are no bounds of rescue..
I am so trapped thats its difficult to enjoy the nitty gritties; I have not known in my circle of friends anyone who is also a control freak...or they might be but atleast they r not visible and imposing on the people around.

I want a day without a routine, a day of utter nonsense like the state of being zero...being lazy..like a couch potato..without the nagging in the head about taking a hot shower...or say following the code...or cooking a proper meal...or staying organised and well placed.

For once I want the that voice out of me...not wanting me to behave ideally, there are so many to do lists which cannot start before this voice dips down! I want my sanity back to be myself for a while. 
Do you know anyone like me..if you do pls share how to tackle and reduce it with time.

Don't loose ,love fat!

Fat ...fat..fat ! The most important word round the world, someone wants to loose and someone wants to gain. An unwanted  higher prefrence is been given to it, and suprisingly whether you give 'your weight' much importance or not but other people do!
Besides the health problems, I don't see anything wrong in being fat. I am plump and I love it, does it change my mind or heart or the way I view things or the way I  do with my relationships??
Whats the fuss...why can't people let people be...everything in this world have different shapes and sizes then why not humans? So what if people petite have well formed molecules and perfect metabolism? Whether its xl..2xl..or 3 xl, noone wants to blow out of proportion but some metabolisms does it..! Its all nature if it would have been unnatural God would have made all the people of same shape.
Judgement and comments on basis of weight should be highly restricted, u know what the best dancers..cook..singers..even heroes come from this slot, try not giving such high equations to weight in your relationship..maybe you will loose out someone special or might hurt someone deeply!
Ok now tell me what is the problem if a person doent have vital statistics...uuuh I know actually she/he will not be a treat to watch! As if we care:(
By all this I dont mean to just become fat and not trying loosing my belly..but u dnt know whether why that person is fat and how much of an effort is being done by him/her to defeat the same, unfortunately our society looks up for everything idealistic...Ideal body..ideal features...ideal profession and a long list follows. No one can be perfect so enjoy being imperfect atleast.
This post of mine is just dedicated to all the people who have weight issues...pls enjoy yourselves because the time will fly and don't hook up on the discouragements and unwanted advices..be what you are love urselves! STAY FIT thats what is important and lastly eat well , eat right and don't starve your dear body!Love the fat m sure it will melt its way down;))

Karma- the ultimate reaper

They say Karma is a bitch ! It is the ultimate reaper of your worldly affairs, the balance sheet of your life with suspense account too!
The very popular phrase stand true in our lifetimes “what you sow is what you reap." I firmly believe that whatever u do here u r paid off here only in this life and there is nothing called heaven or hell..The concept of heaven and hell was created to control the mankind..so that the evil is stopped with the fear of final consequence...
We don't realize this often that we take things for granted, mistreat people in our life span not thinking that anything which goes around..comes around! We fear hell but not the relationship consequence, its so hard to see that people ditch karma for a handful of money or an ounce of ego.
Its frightening to stay testimony of so much on that happens on the name of Dharma and Karma..i feel an act of give away, or an act to make feel someone special does not exists anymore! With all that i m not stating that all people are bad, but a few spoils the whole lot!
Disheartment fills up my soul, when i see around me the physical agony of being handicapped...a bunch of little things brighten up there faces...and we with all that is there just crib for the mere belongings..
Karma is what you possess in mind,heart an soul! Its your lookout towards your contribution to people around, something which makes you think before you do a deed; its nothing but your conscience shouting loud ...listen to it often , it will resolve much of your sufferings..and don't forget its a small life to cherish, love, laugh, be good and eat well! So now on your karma should be the one ur conscience wants to be ..and in the end ; it does nt really matters ... u will be just remembered for your sweet little Karma:)

Where do we stop??

A scene
A person from a small village---"There is no scope in this village for my future i wanna go to the city to work"
Same person in the city----"There is not enough salary to work in the city i wanna go to a metro city"
In Mumbai----“phew! There is so much traffic ...pollution...fast paced life...how do i survive...its better to work in Dubai"
In dubai--- “Things aren't like India...nothing like back home...my village was the best place"

OMG where do we stop??? Did u get the whole idea of writing this story above...these kind of stories i often hear off..with people who just want to run away from the present situation and the place is a mere reason to back it...
Ask yourself where do we stop??? Lets skip the places...we do the same pattern with all the kind of choices we make in life!!!The core problem what it seems to me is the generation....we want all the things faster ..smarter...better...we can't wait...its a haste generation what they call..
Have u heard of any of our parents or older people talking about their nonstop future desires...probably they also talked about it in younger ages...but we are way ahead...life before was peaceful n less competitive...having a property..funds...car was rare luxury....
Now these things are everyday luxury ..with the technological , well marketed and over customized world has brought everything on a click...
Our generation doesn't value...coz we never had to do any efforts to get these...they were never beyond our limits and always were over in abundance...we should sit back n admire our possessions once coz only acquiring doesn't finishes the conquest....
There is no definition of enough.....how much is enough??? I want to save enough.....i want to put aside for my child enough....the point here is for whomsoever u r earning this enough for...is growing up(child) ...growing old ( u n ur spouse)....time is flying..
Take time off...set limits to your goals...set up a benchmark of ur satisfaction....and work towards it...running with blinkers to win a race will never take you where you want to go...and even if you win the race...the people you were running for would be  left way behind... Think!

Transcending trails...

There were lots of thing to prove n achieve..
A time when every dream of mine used to scream
All of that went away through a sling...
I now realize...i m fond of and  have kept aside alot of things
Hopes...dreams....and all my cravings are now being fulfilled by a quick crying...
Women hood teaches us a lot to hold up the family string...
From being a aspirant gal to a "mommy being"
With all the things said and done...one thing stands true...
Nothing can be replaced by the feeling of being a mom and all what it gives to u...
We wake with them...walk with them..talk with them...eat with them...sing with them even get sick with them....
The twinkle in his eye...the mis pronounced sweet blabber...the sly smile...all the tantrums and the crying session which does not end...
It makes u tired...mad...n frustrated too...
But nothing can be as special as experiencing it and being going thru...
The aspirations has new wings and a new fly to plan ..
To reach to destinations which all my mother hood can..
And what is left behind is an untold story of a gal which will be rewritten in another way....
The desires n achievements shape themselves along the line...
U take them with u and they stay by your side...
Live it the best coz the childhood of ur child can't be repeated but ur aspirations can abide...
Proving urself to the world is another story....
Whether u take a leap in ur career or ur household...
No one would ever agree to any theory...
So just be the way you like...submerged in your way of life...living it fullest with urself n ur offspring that's all will be imbibed for years to come in your memory

Tedious thinking...

Thoughts weave  web...n alas we r trapped...
I assume that the person with a dumb mind would be happier than a thinker...
The thinker society rich nowhere but to a  notion which generates confusion..
Thinking often indulges ur peace of mind and leaves u with no sense of the ongoing situation...
Although its rightly said that plan for the future but don't worry about it!

Unleash the travel

We are all travelling...in this world in form of life...coming across the ups and downs....
In this travel we meet strangers who becomes companion...
And the co-travelers becomes friends...
The way we go travelling for a holiday unleashing every moment of the trip..the same should be done for this life travel...
The smaller villages crossed are ur milestones to ur ultimate destination
The way we pick the good things from the village n ignore the rest n unimportant ones...the same should be done on every stage in life...
There are times the ride becomes bumpy n ur vehicles gets broke...but u never loose hope n replace it with a stephanie....that stephanie is an attitude required to cover up obstacles...
Whether the weather or the direction to reach the destination confides with you or not the determination should be un shaken...likewise in life with a situation and decision one should stick to the determination of achieving it...
Remember love is the only fuel to make ur travel smooth...unleash every bit of your fuel to mark your presence in the journey...
Experience is the final key to enrichment and prosper...don't ever take this key lightly.....it can open any kind of luggage of your travel!
'Travel' word here implies living...living to the fullest....live...love..laugh..plan...unravel...determine...experience it..take a break...learn from mistakes n move on to a better milestone....
So people who have not started  travelling ! Start it...and the globetrotters! Mind it....