The last dusk of 2014

Again the clock is ticking....
Another moment of goodbye...
A new year to start with...
Lot of moments on standby...

My wats app is flooded with people saying sorry and thank u for whatever they have done in 2014... and also advices of all sorts on how to start the new year....what to enjoy the best and neglect the worst. Phew!

People who were not even the part of my life in 2014 have also texted me regarding the way to live...thanks to whats app otherwise people would have literally faded from our lives!  But on rethinking I came across a thought of why all concerns at the end of anything when its the time to depart?  Realisation only sunks in with the end ...even self actualisation for that matter. On the last dusk of 2014 we are guilty..sorry and what not about the damn year however as the night will fall the  party is definitely going to be on (what an irony)

Of whatever promises and resolution people make for the new year doesnt last till the end of January itself because we know its a beginning and we have ample of time for all of that clutter, soon it becomes a habit, the year flies with the conclusion of sorrys and thankyous to everyone at the last dusk of the year.
I am not being offensive..I love such wishes  and messages from friends and acquaintances but I have a heart filled with remorse for a lot of things and excited about a few too with this last dusk of the scraming year.

Gathering the thoughts hustling in my mind and a bag of mixed feeling attached along for 2014,I hope that the dawn of the new year brings miracle..fulfill wishes and proves the best for each one of us. The resolutions you are sticking to should stay with you till the year end ,what about me ?  The only resolution I  want to make for myself  is  to stay happy and connected with my loved ones always:) Cheers to 2015...

My questions to mankind.

While I was reading a story to my little one yesterday...a tear trickled down my eyes realising the agony of the mothers whose kids never returned home! Never did they thought that the kid will never come back , nor did anyone imagined even in their dreams to such massacre to happen . 

The pain is unbearable and no pain is equivalent to the pain of loosing a child...a child whom you have raised and watched over for more than dozen years.
An infant whom we teach how to walk and talk...the toddler whom we teach how to paint and write....the kid whom we teach all the manners and the way of life..the teenager whom we guide how to imbibe and shape your life...all the stages, hopes, desires gets buried in a single day

Its like the way you have lived all your life for someone and that someone is just gone (vanished) much before hos time with so many things unsaid and undone leaving no motive behind for parents to live.The pain in the hearts of the parents are strongly felt and empathised with.

Now how they wish of not sending the kid to the school that day....or the parents whose kids were sick and were at home must be thankful to God a million times. My heart goes out to every mother qho had experienced a loss with a magnitude so great like this....as their world is shaken up and destroyed.

Past ghosts are revisited everytime with more brutal tragedy, but till what lenght can this barbarism can be taken ?  Its not a tragedy to a single nation but to the whole world, a display of how incompetent we are in terms of safeguarding the citizens or for that matter our mother earth.

What has happened to the humanity...what's wrong with the basic rules. There is no place in the world who don't give prefrence to women and children safety. But why is that prefrence is only talked about and never used or handled ?Why as nations we are so weak that anyone can harm the softer part of the society?Why can't we build a carefree world where kids get their share of  childhood.. adolescence and youth?
Why can't we make a safer planet for women to trot around the globe without being feared of nuisance? Why can't we avoid such onslaught to the innocents?

These are my questions to the mankind as a whole and not to a particular nation...region or religion. Why can't such incidents be taken up much above as the problem of the world instead of the particular nation's emergency ! Why can't these incidents just stop or resolved forever...

RIP: All the little and pure souls #Peshawar attack

Do you standup for yourself?

We as human beings have been so closely knit with the society and people around that sometimes we forget our own identity ..likes...desires..freedom.
.opnions...choices...even the daily frame of things!

Being emotional and not that strong headed I fear everyday of being diminished, I fear to loose out my voice behind the opinions, I fear to be numb and mentally blocked where my mind is driven my other people's decision. I have to constantly remind myself to stand by my beliefs and choices.

We are always taught to live an ideal life and not what we wish to live, and this notion is imbibed so well in us that as a parent I expect the same from my kid, n off late I realised that I am scraping off my son's own personality but expecting idealism from him. I am now trying to let him be what he is ofcourse the mistakes and tantrums are unacceptable but I want him to take his own shape..

Influences are everywhere  whether with friends, relatives or neighbours ; but influences should be welcomed according to you is most appropriate in your nature of things! The rights and wrongs of anything  are still undefined and much debated about. So listen to your heart and go with the flow!

I have experienced this that everyone suits to their own convenience stand by yourself and suit your requirements , this is how it goes in life,  because everyone is experiencing their own situations which are individualistic and too different.

Next time you feel shy, judgemental or opinionated please feel free to put your feet down and stand for yourself , you have seperate boundaries...liberties and likes , even if people around you don't agree to your taste give a damn and stand for yourself  even if you are standing alone ..cheers!

Agony of the sweet tooth

What I am going to write today is what alot of people will be suffering through- the agony of the sweet tooth...as everyone knows that diabities has really taken over a lot of humanity in its clutches making people incapable of producing enough insulin for rest of their lives.
Actually it is a hopeless scenario and until my blood picked up some traces of sugar I never realised the torture which a diabietic goes through! So when I found out about the traces and the fair chances of having it in future I became more concious and  started researching about this whole clumsy diet stuff...which restricts you for anything delicious in life:(
Suddenly I was counting  my carbs...proteins ..fat and all the other components of a specific food item..it was tiring as well as eye opening...all this while the sweet tooth was blamed for having this condition but unfortunately it can hppen to anyone with or without the sweet tooth..I want to admit that my weight have been always on the plumpier side, got a lot of suggestions , advices and bribes to get skinner but I loved my self the way I was, never worried about these nasty carbs etc..but the traces have really pushed me to read the calorie facts, to eat on time, to eat in portions, and above all eat healthy!
Phew...I crave for so many things, but have to keep control and check of what I eat...now I sympathize with all of them around me who have this situation and realise the agony of the taste buds ,sweet tooth.I remember my grandmother injecting insulin before meals , then as a kid it never seemed so hassling but now even to think about taking it is devastating!
  I know things will not get that worst still this impaired disease really takes away your freedom to eat! Currently I am very disheartened and feeling cheated by the work done by my pancreas, and definitely I am not going to give this organ of mine an appraisal this time , with a hope of working better in coming days, the feeling has not sunk in and  i hope it settles well with all the people too who are going through this agony! Last piece of advise for all the people who take it lightly..pls keep a track of your glucose levels and remove the myth that it happens to those who eat sugar!

Disheartening disparities

With this clean India movement taking the full throttle, I wish the same way it could clean the minds of the people and wipe away all the disparities away with it. A Nation full of disparities either in terms of wealth, education, standard of living its highly required to be be taken up as a challenge.
Poorer are getting poorer and richer are getting more richer! The disparity is really disheartening,  how will this disparity dissolve ? Let me make it very clear that  I am not talking about the beggers here...they have enough money for their daily lives (thanks to their begging) but the small vendors like the balloon seller....popcorn seller...roadside sellers who just sell small things for petty cash to earn their one time meal for the day is what upsets me.
Ultimately their aim of life is to have enough money for two time meal( its that difficult) and some will say here...that is that it all they have to think of is earning two meals a day! After reading this line again and again I realise that how much we crib in our already privileged lives, and the goals, the benchmarks and the portion of wealth ofcourse..but I still wonder about their thought process, their way of living ..it must be hard.
After having almost everything we desire we are so  much  wanting...but with no peace at heart and definitely no achievement also because our goals are undulating as we enter different phases in life. Yet I believe their life will be much at peace than ours , its a constant fearless life they live with nothing to loose, and anything which comes their way is heartly welcomed.
The way we talk about growing a plant every year on our birthdays to make the planet more greener, each one of us should start charity for any of the needy we see ..who try very hard to earn their livelihoods,  if not money the help with the education to their children or adopt a months ration for them.
Recently I encountered that a man donated his fridge and put it outside his house on the street ..to put all the not required extra food which we anyways throw and waste..for the needy ( I know a lot of us will second this as the other people who might not be that needy can take it and the help will not reach the real needy..but atleast its a start..start to something good and fruitful..imagine if every house starts doing it imagine how much food can be made available. .
Think with this angle also at times, it gives immense pleasure to make someone happy even happier than the promotion or raise you are expecting this year! Charity can wave off disparities to some extent, if any thing is required ...that is definitely the effort of making up to someone who needs it the most.

The hatrick year...my son is 3 today!

Years are flying and u are getting older by the day...it started with pampers , bottles and booties and reached to "I want to do it on my own" statement! You have grown so much that u hardly fit my arms...
Your every act has its own charm...whether it is opening fridge for taking out your favourite yogurt...or helping me with stacking the groceries...the way u dance and sing your heart out....your inclination to music....your love for reading books...your saying "mumma don't cry I love u" ....watching the ugliest of the shows on tv with me...wearing cap, goggles to any kind of outing (whether party or beach...lol), the way u are particular to wear a specific tshirt...or your deep affection to your night suits...the way u blabber hindi perfectly nowadays....and trick n woe me to download apps for your ipad...
You have truly engrossed my life and have given it a meaning, its just been three years and I dont remember any other reason for being that much happy earlier...
With you the sun is more brighter, moon is much calmer, stars are more shiner, life is much better, you complete us fully...sweetheart ! Continue with building up your charisma and bubble our lives like this till eternity.

The Firangi fantasy

I never understood what curiosity and interest we Indians have towards the firangis...
Recently i visited a wedding ceremony and by chance there were a few firangis dressed up in indian traditional attire....to my surprise the the firangs were watched more than the bride n groom themselves..
We always have this fascination towards the colour, towards our rituals being accepted by them. Generally they back home would be normal people but definitely treated specially here...
So the whole nazara or call it a scenario was like all the eyeballs were sticking out to them, whatever they were eating those stalls were full, wherever they were going the camera was shooting them.
In the whole situation I was wondering what big-a-deal is it? Why were they treated like some bollywood celebrity? Everyone needs recognition but when the the nation as a whole gets recognition the people go over the top to show their happiness and that pulls down the image of our country.
I pity on us sometimes. With such a rich cultured, deep rooted, vivid nation of ours which is full of talent and outstanding abilities , we still are star struck by someone so different. But its all natural we always awe for the things we dont experience. Experience enriches the mind but leaves the interest barren. The irony somehow is that the westeners now want to adapt hinduism, yoga, shastra and what not to become desi!
In addition to all said above , no offence, Indians staying out of India carry a false image of todays India and what it is capable of! Every nation has its own Ps and Qs , pros and cons; so what if in the prevailing times cons are more, but we are capable and worth of lot more pros. Till then we have to confide and  stick to our roots, we have lot more to pay off to our country than we think!