Recurring reconsiderations

Ok so I started reading my older writings and blogs and I feel so full of emotions...and reconsider my thoughts and state of mind at that point of time when I wrote those....it's so strange to feel as if they are written by somebody else and not me....writing is a meditation which makes me loose myself....just the madness of penning down about how it is! It's bud to just peek in ur own self for a while in this life...can't tell so many thoughts gushing to the millionth speed in my mind...zooming over I...me...myself .....recurring reconsiderations over my trails...sheer madness