Oh Womania!

And whenever I look around I find women struggling. We (women) are some how taught to be patient and bearing...we are taught to adjust fiercely till the last drop of our courage and brevity..we are everything but ourselves...
Women are always pushed to do things mostly they don't like or encourage but still on the cost of self depletion they carry on the burdened task. Why the nature is like that where a  woman has to suffer more than men...what society is this if we have rules where women is only one responsible for household even if she works?what kind of parenting are we doing when we tell her that you have to adjust?when we talk about equality why dont we start with equality in gender realted works.
My heart goes out to women who live a life they are not even aware of what they are missing or what else they could be..Then there are women who know all that is wrong but just says yes to things to be acceptable in the society , after knowing also they themselves don't want to leave that trap..We only want to be like that "caged" for years and years and blame it on our fate or otherwise...
Why dnt we let ourselves freed and look beyond the household and the chores, why dont we rise above this discrimition and be someone who is equally contributing to the  relationship. Why can't we offer the next generation freedom of thought and action? Not teaching them the role that's  defined from ages but to teach them to be themselves by accepting who they really are, that whatever way they choose will be the best and whatever will happen, there still will be a way! Lets be the change we want to see..

  

Of intensity and vulnerability

Some or the other time in our life we come across  people who are like the right fit to "your"  definition of a perfect person , suddenly your whole life changes, the routine becomes peppier and life becomes more peaceful; when in the back of your mind you know is that person is there along your side.

Enhancing it further the other person also makes you believe that they feel the same intensity and chemistry to hang around with  you. Its certainly funny that you believe that "this is it" and your search for that perfect person is stopped, you open your arms heart and mind to welcome this new arrival of emotions and surge into the idea of this deep relation where your mind thinks likewise and your idea of life aligns but alas! Life is not as rosy as we think about it. Y

our words make you vulnerable and makes it easy for that person to either leave or tone down. I don't know how that happens that a fraction of second can fade away all memories!

As a younger person in my life I was a dreamer someone who was rebellious and filmy at the same time, I was under an illusion of perfect friendships and other relationships I was always sure that someone will come always to pamper and rescue me in the end as I was mostly the center of attention thanks to the set of multiskills I have! But I forgot that all that attention and appreciations are generally  short lived and does not survive for the lengths of time, and that I realized a bit later.

Gradually I started hating the fact that why am I so intense and why only does it affects me only so badly . I always looked for constant people and not erratic because my system doesn't accepts that. I have always been a slave of overthinking and mostly that lands me in vain, then later I thought and thought and came to a conclusion that----Sometimes we invest so much of ourselves in someone else that its hard to retrieve  its like your software just crashes in the system and you are dumbfound to act, therefore its better to invest in your own self.

As my phoenix was burning to ashes I thrived and started resurrecting myself , started loving my intensity and my depth of thoughts and all of a sudden I felt liberated, as it was only me I was worried about and only my convenience I wanted to cater to. The pleasing and not being able to say no was reformed to -- suiting my convenience and saying NO as and when I could do things without stretching myself. 

Current State: I am happy. liberated. Intense. Unconventional. Maverick. full of Self love . someone with no expectations

As human beings we are somehow programmed to work around a goal whether long term or short term. There are some people who just search for it all their lives and then there are some who find it easy enough. I urge you to find a goal and work around it, you will love your energy flowing in those directions rather than people and certain relationships... a goal always keeps you grounded and deep rooted to what you are and where you want to go. Pursue a goal and work hard if you also are an intense like me...life is harder for people like us.... but we in our heart are the happiest because we don't give any less than 100 percent to anything we do.

Wipe off the Temerity

Its disheartening to see when today's world treats simplicity with mediocrity and showoff with grandeur. It disappointing to locate people around you so indulged in their own selves that the humility and kindness are fading away...
That every kind gesture is taken for granted and that each word of yours makes you vulnerable enough to be commented upon Its really sad that the world enjoys negativity  in such a fruitful way,that every luxury is just treated as a mere average.
It make my heart twich to feel where are we heading and what do we achieve in turning the people down everytime inspite of their best efforts.i wish we become a change and stand out in this world, where we recognize everyone for their efforts instead of measuring their importance to us.

Its a sinking feeling but we shall arise eventually where we will give respect to relations..things..friendships..where loyalties will find its set places, where not everything or everyone readily available will be just overlooked  . Everyone is unique  with their own value system and has something different to offer to our set of skills. Start here. Start now. Be the change, value the universe! Work hard, Stay Humble.