Torn between the two worlds...

 I can't imagine the time when we were free , free to move, free to travel, free to do a lot of things which we rather took otherwise, then there came a time when you wish for all those simple things to occur to you which you didn't even bother about so much ! (Irony)

Living in a country other than your own, comes with benefits but also have their own set of cons. While we constantly evaluate them , one always finds the grass greener back home ( classic cliché isn't it). Having said all of the above , its been 2 years that I visited my country and almost that many years of having visited my parents and in-laws (because of the travel bans and other regulations)

So every year as soon as the scorching summer arrives in the Middle East it is  the time we splurge to plan  to go home and the summer holidays just aligns with plan. Hence next three months are  well placed back home, where things are easy not because it is my country but the thing that we are not solely responsible for the chores (well largely!)

The arrival back home for holidays is no less than a celebration and we all rejoice mutually. Parents are always overwhelmed  to have us and the kids around and then even we are carefree that they are learning in a different way with their grandparents ( we always believe as humans that we definitely learn with the change in place and circumstance) 

The feeling described above is very well understood by all the women who go to stay at their parent's house every year during holidays but believe me you just have to triple that feeling to know how it feels to be back home from a foreign land, although there are no extremities and Infact an easier life  but still the satisfaction just soars in lieu of our motherland.

As I mentioned its been 2 years that we have been to my parent's place, I feel nostalgic not only by listening to the news that the monsoons has arrived in India or the pictures of the street food we come across on Insta, and every little thing or memory associated with the summer holidays. Its like an yearly ritual that we hook upon and now it just feels empty.

We are into a pandemic and even more serious situation with the onset of the Kids' Summer Holidays starting this weekend (as it's tedious to keep them busy within the four walls), it is also that same time when we travel to India every year with numerous plans and plethora of smiles . Always torn between these two worlds of residence and roots that we overlap a lot many problems entwining them both .

This period in mankind is certainly going down in the history and so will go the agony of not been able to visit home, the deprivation of not being able to spend the fragile and naïve years of kids' childhood with their grandparents. We are not only loosing sanity but a time to connect and care , torn between the two worlds where I want to be and where I should be!

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The Constant hustle

I want you to take a deep breath before you read this , a broader mind and a clean slate perspective--

I look around and everyone is striving, so hard to make a mark, a unique mark where they feel that they are making  the most of themselves and justifying their talents with utmost might. A kind of persuasion  which never existed in the generation before this one ! The  former generation was full of satisfaction and was at ease...on the contrary this latter one is one with a constant hustle -- to do big , to do different and all the more to do something (at least) !

OK I got the point that you should do something with yourself, I completely align with the idea of exploring and keep doing. Infact we are doing extensively as individuals ,we are in a constant desire to prove something, sometimes our worth and sometimes our point of view. We try so so hard each day to be worthwhile even in the minutest of the ways, so my question here is Why??? Why do we have to prove our worth, what if we don't do nothing at all? What if I fall short? What if I am not productive at all?

As humans we have a tendency to move in herds or to follow a certain norms which others set, so once one of them starts the others follow even the lazy bums are influenced by the major mass of  the striving herd and fall in the trap of " Proving your worth". I sometimes feel that the olden times were better when there was no social media...nor the purchasing power...nor this invisible race where everyone is running at a fast pace even at the cost of tumbling down the hill!

The point I want to make through this blog is that if you have the desire and determination for some thing just do it but if not then " IT IS OK" , it is absolutely fine if you don't want to do anything or nothing interests you or even if you just do a  9 to 5 , or if you just sleep and eat to you heart's content "IT'S FINE!" Slow down, cherish yourself, take it easy, know what you  like, just keep reminding yourself how evolved  are you , draw boundaries , experience life and BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE . For judgements are the part of life and about comparisons  they are nothing but an unwanted tag !

An Early Riser's Saga

A cold dry porch and a silent early morning,

with those birds chirping and the tea leaves boiling,

Every crisp leaflet of that newly printed newspaper,

Giving away the sniff of the world and news to savor,

Those slight pink hues in the sky,

reminding you  that a new day is on a standby,

on the other side is the coffee giving you another chance,

Keeping the mind tight with it's fragrance,

The sun soaked floor bringing in the serenity,

and the glittering rays just pushing you to chase your dream with clarity,

Taking a step forward and embracing today as it stands,

while weaving the plans for tomorrow to make it grand!

Revise, retell, iterate yourself and believe,

Every day is beautiful , everyday just proves how beautiful life can be!