What do you miss the most from the past ?

I wonder what we miss the most,

Is it the freedom to move around or the liberty to socialise,

Is it the ease of availability of things or the way we use to take the things for granted?

Is it the petty problems which we always stretched till it became big  or the bigger problem like we are facing now?

Is it the changing rooms in our favourite fashion outlet,

Or our preferred seat in the movie theatre?

Is it the visit to carnivals, tourist spots,cruise and entertainment parks,

Or the travel plans which never went as per the plan?

Is it the no sweat exit and enteries to malls,

Or the flash mobs in the dancing halls?

Is it  being easily able to meet the parents who live far apart.

Or the school routine which is gone afar?

Is it the high spirits we experienced during a tournament or the festival,

Or is it the non stop deliveries of the amazon parcels which we took very casual?

Is it the colourful nightlife you miss or you miss the crowded beach.

I wonder if we miss what we actually missed or we miss what we never had, but the past always seems prettier than present however bad it could have been!

I wonder what we will do next, how will we really be? How will we react when it all will comes to end  or when we will be out of this lockdown, will we treasure that freedom with safety or will we go haywire like before.

Let's take baby steps in these time towards a safer, better world which is adjusting to the "New Normal"

Archives of a Memoirist

I will keep you in my heart so as my mind,

so I can feel your presence everytime I rewind.

Memories are a keepsake for life and yours will always remain with me,

The day when we said our goodbye and thou shall remain be.

I still wonder why we met if we had to part!

I still wonder why you had to leave without a word, didn't you know I was really hurt?

I was quiet even after the parting storm you created,

looking for the bits and pieces which must have been mistreated!

Picking up clues where did I go wrong, or if it was never meant at all?

or If we were too much in my head than our real life's brawl.

I am sure you have your side too, to say;

But that doesn't stop my side, to not build its way!

Your reasons must have been reasonable ,logical or grey,

I was gullible enough to believe it was only  heart and emotions that had the say!

I wanted to stand by you through thick and thin,

sometimes even if I had to ignore myself or commit a sin.

Probably the extremists like me have a deep prolong affect of everything important,

whether it was your talks,your habits or the fact you were adamant.

Your imprints on my life has left me forever longing,

they will still stay with me even if I inearth all your belongings.

Some memories cannot be taken out of your heart and mind,

they just live there profoundly making their presence once in a while.

The dark corners they stay in have flaps of  an opportunist,

that when you sit with an empty mind it mirrors your lost love in a gist!

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The very "First Love"

The things we find most unconventionally and unexpectedly always make home in our heart,

So while I try to forget them all, I live with them everyday.

The deep brown eyes setting on me for the first time,

A warm pat saying that you will always watch my back.

The honest smile which always melted my heart,

Holding hands like we will never part.

The plans of lifetime in a wink of a eye,

That's how the first love feels like!

The reassurance of constantly staying beside,

Pampering me with all the little things I like.

Tackling all my mood swings and tantrum,

I was a tireless person  always with high thrum.

Never ending last 5 minutes before hanging up the phone,

All the cute texts in our newly found language like never before.

Feeling of being safe with you whenever you were around,

My first love never let me land my feet on the ground.

Always walking an extra mile whenever you could only for me,

It felt nothing less than Heaven when you were with me.

You brought the best in me, and you set me free,

Encouraging me to fly to the peak and calming down my spree.

You were more of a feeling than a person to me,

Where I felt the most happy and home as I can be.

A hopeless romantic, and someone who can go to lengths for the one you love,

I will always remember our honest and comforting "First Love".

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A chance of a lifetime!

The audacity of the current world situation is  genuinely alarming and haunts us with loads of information from all sides. So keeping all of them in mind and going through these tedious times, let us take an opportunity to be the best version of ourselves exhibiting humility and kindness towards each other.

No other time than now on earth we would need the humility and generosity as much! It is like the whole nature is been asking you to be someone you always used to think u should be, but never got a chance to be, in your busy  life . So this is your chance to redeem,where the whole universe is conspiring to make us a better human being.

With a full stop to our busy lives we have got a world of exploration in front of us where we could explore our hobbies , our strengths,our family time. Beginning with inculcating good habits  in the young ones, to sitting together for deeper conversations with the older generation. It is an absolutely fantastic time to just reset everything we used to do and redo them in a finer way.

Ok! I know you must be thinking it is easier said than done but the options with us are really limited and this tops the list of the things we must do. I still wonder how our lives has shrunk to a smaller caliber that too on various deeper levels. The unlikeliness of the situation has been daunting us, pushing us to deviate from all our plans of earlier life, doesn't it feels like an earlier life?

A life where so many things were taken for granted, roaming around freely, hanging out with friends even going to a grocery store which is now obstructed .We are not left with anything but ourselves and hence its a best opportunity to change, not only the way we live but the  whole thought process. These times already have showed us that how temporary our world is and however much we think that we are stable and prosperous , we are always on the brink of extinction. The paradox of having been planned for next 10 years straight and fixing goals of far future feels so foolish all of a sudden when we couldn't see all this coming!

Conclusively I firmly believe that humility, kindness, gentleness and compassion goes a long way, and it shall remain till the end with us. Spurts of helps and looking out for each other is something we all should start doing, with rigorous times coming ahead. Do your bit by calling an old friend and catching up from where you left, posting positive stuff online, developing interests and hobbies, checking up on your neighbours , participating and promoting creativity even while on video calls with family,  involve in deeper conversations with your parents and offsprings, it is a golden time to bond with humanity and lets do bit by bit by eliminating the unfavourable elements and spread positivity in these fragile times.

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Nothing like before

Unanticipatedly the whole  formula of  living changed swiftly! Things which were important are somehow negligible and the things which were not given much importance are now a luxury.Imagine how much we took people, things and surroundings for granted, until all this happened we were still grasped in the cliched petty issues whether about relationship,work or certain friendship. 

Now all the jealousy, competition,branded shopping, travel flaunt is put to a full stop, just to save ourselves! So basically we were living a materialistic life until the outbreak and one fine day the switch got reversed  confining us to our home to save lives! This proves that afterall we started running this race for supporting our daily life only and somehow  got jumbled up with all the flashes and frills while running and forgot the basic goal of why we were running so fast? To introspect then and now everything looks so tiny and meaningless.

 The selfies with friends have become a a mere screenshots of numerous video calls, the instagram has become more of a stage to showcase your hobbies instead of being a market place. Virtual travel trips are a new thing, schools and students are struggling with online classes. Netflix has become a trend and a way to kill the boredom. Restaurants are a far fetched thing and cooking at home and putting up the videos are the "in" things.  News channels have no other topic than the current situation, and curfew is the new way of our daily routines. Quarantine and lockdown are the most used words on the internet. Hugs and kisses are being missed , coffee shops are now treasured the most after toilet paper (lol) malls and movie theatres are not even in the list of "places to be" and everything is zeroed down to existence and storage of daily necessities ( how ironic!)

Still missing the larger picture of what perilous situation we are dealing with; Everyone is trying hard, really hard to be as they were before but it will take time to settle with everyone that world is never going to be the same..and gradually we will learn to live in a new found way with sources available on our disposals.

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Being an Ordinary parent in these Extraordinary times

Being a mother of two boys ,aged 5 and 8 , I was enthralled and baffled upon hearing this pandemic outbreak. It started in December in China and since then almost all countries are battling with it now, as the cases arrived here in our country,the schools got closed in the third week of February hoping to open April and now extended till October . Earlier hearing this news as a parent I was intimidated and then I understood the fragility of it!

Well, as parents also we were not ready to handle such a preposterous event, suddenly we are expected to fit into a lot of roles along with being a parent like a teacher, friend,coach etc . Not only pondering over the academic shortcomings but also of the extra circular activities which the kids are now devoid of! I felt an urge of devising a plan to keep them updated with their academic level as well as keeping them carefree and loved in this difficult times.

Hence It drains my energy everyday thinking of how else can I make a day better and fruitful for these kids.Limiting screen timings, finding books to read for them, researching on a new craft, keeping up with a bit of academics too !But that's just one part of the play and I have another parts too to play as well, where I have to manage my baking venture, home and mountain of other daily tasks and responsibilities.I am sure a lot of the Moms must be feeling the same as me that we are depicting  Noah  from the Noah's ark --stocking up, keeping calm and handling the kids keeping them indoors.

First of all take it easy, breathe and don't be so hard on yourself as a parent, you have to provide all of it but it is really not humanly possible.Therefore stop being guilty of what you are not able to provide,  but yes educate them about the problem and tell them that they are safe and loved.Take one step at a time to keep them engaged , as we are bound to more and more social distancing .Plan one activity a day and bifurcate it into series of  activities on the same topic throughout the day.

Kids take up lot of our energy and generally its hard to keep them bounded to a thing for a long time. But, well if you give a little structure to their day and they will be sorted and happier. I am huge fan of "routines" and adhere to them strictly enough.Hence I started with making a routine for them where we do similar things at similar time every day whether it be creative time..bed time..reading time..learning time, and their beloved screen time. Almost a month now that the school closed we are still sticking to routines and its helping me to be sane for sure.

Despite being a referee to my kids' fights everyday I still wonder how they get so much energy to fight about every petty thing, and I realized that imagine if that energy is not being able to invest in right directions! These are hard times but we can learn many things and make them learn it too. There are a many online platforms available to keep them engaged. Of all, its the best time to introspect and teach them the best, on life and being a better human being,  also about their environmental responsibilities.

We don't know how long and how far we will be into it,as these staggering times are difficult and much challenging to deal with kids . These are out testing times and also of building up our pile of patience to handle everything around.

I know we have too much on our plates as a person, but let that not vent out out and reflect on kids, instead let this free time for kids be a creative and educative one, with lessons they learn from us each day and what we choose to make them do.

Happy Parenting! 

In midst of this Pandemic

Never imagined , I would ever write this or rather experince this scenario ,what we are experiencing today because of COVID -19. I am an expat living in a middle eastern country called "Kuwait" where the population is close to 4 millions and even a few cases pose enough stress.Upon the arrival of this pandemic in this country marked the shutting down of schools followed by shutting down of everything else subsequently . Finally the "D" day came making us face a real panic situation  called "lock down" where an information from the ministry came that the country is locking down tonight !

"LOCKING DOWN TONIGHT?"

The way people understand the above statement is to their own discretion but with major population of people  being expat in this country was certainly "disturbing" for them.The fact adds to the misery that as an expat you always feel a nomad however comfortable you are in a foreign country. Eventually the above statement was clarified and was imposed upon the workplaces and public places to be closed, but people still contemplated whether the supermarkets shall remain open or not ? (That's how the human instinct works to save the livelihood!)

The fear of running out of groceries was more than the fear of pandemic itself it seemed that day...where it felt that the world is coming to an end somehow in light of the chaotic situation and mass herding upon the Cooperative store, supermarkets and small mom and pop stores ! There were long queues on the bill counter and barely any place to move around with so many people and their trolleys ! As a baker by profession I was gladly baking until 5 pm in the evening when my sister called and panicked me about the situation stating that I should buy enough groceries that last a few weeks, so at first I panicked because lock down means I can't fly to my home country India where my parents are...plus this humongous amount of staples and groceries to be taken care of amidst this crisis.

I wonder why we are taught everything and not this " Crisis Management" . We as a citizens of any country don't have any idea or rather any expertise as to what is needed to be done in such a catastrophic situation. As a result the whole world is seeing the empty shelves because people are hoarding and don't know how much to store?  Believe me in coming days hoarding and wastage of water will be the prime problems after the rising number of cases, stock markets and declining businesses.Hopefully as soon as it gets over (if at all) the governments from all over the world would reckon this subject of  "crisis management" as a directive to all the citizens.

So while on the war front with this sanitization, constant news, lock down, grocery management and most of all the precautions to be taken care of ,I am dealing with  two house ridden kids too, who have been the most disoriented ones all this time,  they are happy to be home and all but they hardly know what we are facing as a human community! Keeping them creatively busy and resourceful is another challenge most of us are facing as moms as more than half billion kids are off school throughout the world. 

Hence I feel we have a lot more weight on our shoulders than we thought , foremost comes the hygiene, filtering the the news with mindfulness, saving as much water, not hoarding up more than two weeks of groceries, social distancing of course( not suiting your own requirements though), spending some quality family time and let kids explore our planet through online platforms and make them understand what measures they can take as a kid to avoid the situation. Conclusively no-one can say if it is just the tip of the iceberg or probably we are  half way through, whatever it is we have to be more careful and responsible towards this challenge we are facing in these agitating times.